Lord Chaitanya- only shelter for the forlorn, for the most fallen

My life and my heart is the divine couple, in life or death I have no other refuge but Them. Serving Their lotus feet is my eternal hobby, without Their mercy I'm nobody. I donot desire salvation, nor do I desire libration. All I want is their transcendental association. Their holy names are so sublime, I sing it and dance all the time. They'r always joyful in spiritual bliss, nothing is more glorified than thinking about this. Ho! when will I behold Their moon like faces for which I'm waiting since ages! Their sweet past times are the most pleasurable, to this fallen soul who is most miserable. With Them I have spiritual attachment, I'm no longer able to abide this detachment. I'm dying in fear, will They ever appear? Will I attain Them in this life which is full of pain, or this rare human life go in vain?!

Life was always filled with gloom, but I thought that someday surely it'll bloom. I was a materialist, so my thoughts were also of an impersonalist. I kept on seeking happiness everywhere; but I was unfortunate, I found it nowhere. I didn't find a single ray of hope, when things got messed up and I wasn't able to cope. I lamanted and cried everyday, when I found no hope on my way! Despai had led me on to helplessness, where will I find happiness?? Then I started my journey in search of peace, still I was certain that this journey will never cease... for I was no less than any fool, who is seeking happiness in the world which is miseries whirlpool! But on my way I met someone whom I'll forget never, because he changed my life forever. As if, as if Krishna Himself send him to me, to change my life the way it's supposed to be. He inspired me to chant the holy names of God and made me realize, the only aim of my life is to serve the Lord. Now as if...